Imaginary Sanctuary

2010-04-16T00:45:00.001+08:00

AS OF NOW...imaginarysanctuary.blogspot.com will NO LONGER be used for blogging...instead, it will be used to put up songs of mine every once in awhile =)))) due to my absolute lack of time i wont be able to update it frequently =(((( so yea...cyas all and stay tuned for the next song =D

2010-01-16T01:37:00.002+08:00

I'll Tell ©

(by Joshua Lui)

Wadcha gonna do

wadcha gonna pay

just for you to have your way

wadcha gonna do

wadcha gonna say

if your life ends today

do you know how your life started

do you know how much you missed

did you ask yourself if this is what you ever wanted

or did it have to end like this

tell me bout the things

that never got along

the people who made your life go wrong

tell me bout the love

that didn't last for long

well let me tell you bout the love, that made me write this song

i'll tell you how your life started

i'll tell you how much you missed

i'll tell you what is it you really wanted

and that it doesn't have to end like this

and how He lay it all down on the ground, for you.

2010-01-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

Only Hope

[Written by Switchfoot]

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

2009-11-21T01:34:00.004+08:00

Love, right, behind ©

(by Joshua Lui)

ThE frigid air bitting my feet

the thoughts swirling in my mind

an answer i did not seek

a future i did not find

questions of every verb

options of every kind

yet i feel disturbed

my actions are of the blind

no not of wads around me

know too much of wads denied

cold hands that creep below me

know nothing but my demise

impending arrives my doom

as nails now pierce my heart

the pain ended too soon

as my skin felt the warmth of blood

fell free of the chains that bind me

fell free of the death i declined

left a lifeless body behind me

together with a love right behind

2009-09-28T22:48:00.004+08:00

tell me your secrets...

HeYz HeYz...i know its been an uber long time since i posted. well, so much has happened in the past months and i can only summarize it in 2 words "shit happens" and im rather glad to say tat im not gonna post them all on my blog...phew =|

anyways today wont be much of a post...jus gonna post something i composed myself =)

Tonight ©

(by Joshua Lui)

A silent night, a one-way road

and still i've got nowhere to go

you made your way to my heart

without you, i fear i will fall apart

hear the wind as they carry your whisper

the sweet voice of my lifetime lover

you've been there whenever i'm down

and still i treasure every second you're around

hold my hand, lead me on

bring me to somewhere new

a place i never knew

we'll dance into the night sky

like how the stars seem to fly

oh hold me tight, tonight

i shall stop here...hahaha of course im not gonna post the full song, duh~ anyways hope u guys liked it =) till next time, see yas!

2009-08-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

singing singing song~...

been so long since i listened to it, Glory of Love by North. i dare say it brought me through alot of confusion and hardship...its like a fantasy song, 1 which i always wanted to be real. HAHA how stupid of me xD it hasnt died out 1 bit...still loved it as always =) lolz i remembered asking my old best fren Ali during sec 3 camp, which was his 1st time listening to it, how was it...he said tat it wasnt really tat good LOLOL!! and tat the lyrics was abit childish.

hmmm, but i guess now tat im reminded of tat incident...i kinda realised tat i like tat childishness in its lyrics. its like a happily-ever-after kinda thing...haha such a change from the songs of nowadays, this is such a great reminder of the past for me...LOL! i still miss tat old bastad Ali =)

anyways here are the lyrics of the song...even though its my dunno how-many'th time posting them xD

Glory of Love

Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget to say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I'll save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
Gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

2009-08-03T08:44:00.003+08:00

No One Else...

HaHaZ i can bet tat many R-AGER's blog post would have this title for this particular post xD anyways on with it...

as u might have guessed, No One Else is finally over (not tat i wish it was over but....) yea, it was great, i have never seen SOOO MANY NON-CHRISTIANS in our church in MY LIFE before...it was indeed a great sight...i dont see their physical appearances (even though i know Kirb would love to) i saw potential, potential for all those non christians to be christians...it was really a fulfilling feeling! especially if u have been sweating all day getting posters up, cutting table cloth, sprinkling flowers on the stairs, covering lamps with black cellophane and most importantly, creating huge white plastic 3D letters of NO ONE ELSE in 1 month etc etc...HAHA im jus glad to say tat i am part of the team tat made it all happen! i'm so happy =D 41 ppl were saved in total! i literally gasped at the number

i managed to bring Lynn and her fren Freddy along...hahaha Lynn looks different now, and she still dare says she put on weight (NO U DIDNT!) lolz the onli thing she puts on are the eyes of guys looking at her HAHAH its a compliment btw...anyways wad a great day.

on the off-hand, i got World of Warcraft, thx to Zhiming's persistent pestering i finally played it...it was gd, but real tough...my character dieded like super easily sort of like tissue paper lol.

also, drama is gonna be super active soon, i wont spoil everyone by telling u wads gonna happen but yea...hehe

oh oh oh, and we celebrated Evageline Banana Tan's birthday yesterday jus before combined service at g2. hahaha it was really funny, we made up alot of impromptu plannings partially due to my latecoming. lol we also almost gave it away thx to Sean Tan acting abit too suspiciously, but all turned well in the end...and Chloe told us a real funny joke! =| i cant really remember the sequence of events tat led to the joke so i shant post it here yet xD

anyways im off back to lecture now, haiz...boreded boreded boreded...oh and im planning to work on a violin cover of Over Again - No One Else. hahaha wish me luck.

P.S: NO ONE ELSE was superb! *envy envy* *envy envy*

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2009-07-13T08:54:00.002+08:00

but deep down where no one can hear me...

ItS monday and im at home sick again...haiz. got myself to blame for this cuz i went to church yesterday and even continued going out with the others for lunch and stuffs when i jus recovered. i was onli left with a runny nose tats it lolz but then got sick halfway again haiz. i really hope the others dont get it =( my mistake seriously.

now im stuck at home my dad is working from home as well and im totally sick again! woooopeeeeee =.= im feeling emo again. and no its not bcuz of the flu. somethings are better left unsaid.

i jus wanna leave this phrase...

"the cry, the tears, and the never ending maze"

2009-07-10T16:04:00.004+08:00

YAY! pizza!!

hahaha, i jus ordered 241 Canadian Pizzas! woots...one of the few times i get to eat pizzas, and im sick! LOL! anyways like i said b4, im sick...so im stuck on bed bored to death. i feel like im 1 step closer to death by staying in bed =.=. soooooooooo, i decided to camwhore! HAHAHA i know im crazy...but it must be the medicine getting to my head. wooooo~ i feel light xD

I LOVE RAY-BANS!!!!!
me and my seh "MJ" hat move xD

me and my "seh" Ray-Ban's sunglasses look xD

me being high thx to the medicine xD

another "seh" sunglasses look

my "mat" krabby

my "mat" Willy

"MJ" Willy! =DDDD (my tribute to MJ)

"MJ" Krabby!! =DDDD (my tribute to MJ)

who says guys cant have soft toys =.=

2009-07-09T23:09:00.001+08:00

Loneliness Knows Me By Name

(Westlife)

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

[Chorus]

Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

2009-07-09T14:29:00.001+08:00

Photo taken by Evan on my "lao ah pek phone" with me DOING HER PHOTO EDITING WORK rofl xD

2009-07-09T14:15:00.002+08:00

Life is more and that would be the vacant space

HeYs HeYz...jus came back from school, super long and embarrassing story so i shant post it here =P anyways im having a real bad headache now, crap manszxzz its one of the few times i get headaches. =.=

anyways nth much to post about actually other than my phone has some weird problem and i gotta send it down for repairs so im using another replacement phone for now (or wad Evangeline would like to call it, "AH PEK phone for the LAO AH PEK" hahaha.

and my common tests jus ended, pls dont ask me how i did...cuz i KNOW VERY WELL tat i didnt do anywhere near good lolz

oh and i got my pair of Ray-Ban sunglasses! wootzxzxzxz my father paid for me, and guess wad after hunting high and low and checking out prices at various locations such as Millenia Walk, Suntec City and etc...we finally bought it at People's Park Chinatown...gdness, do u know the price difference is SO GREAT between the latter and former??? suntec area sells it like around 300+ SGD, whereas chinatown onli sells it at 170 =o its authentic btw i checked and double checked plus the shop which i bought it from has a HUGE crowd therefore its reputation must be quite gd...so its more or less reliable =)

on the other hand, last nite went for drama meeting. UNFORTUNATELY nat yee, shawn, abby, deborah, nigel, corn, marshall, couldnt make it =((((( so its jus me, nat boy, and elliot...haha it was rather okok. brainstormed on Psamlthing New and tried to limit it down to a few Psalms =) either ways went to have drinks with the adults and nico offered a cab ride back and he paid for it...THX DOOOOOOD =D

well, helped out with Evan's art work yesterday jus b4 drama cuz she required a macbook to do some photoshopping...HAHA hilarious la! her fren smuggled like Long John Silvers into the library via Evan's bag, then we found a secluded corner and she started eating...haha and evan was complaining tat her bag smells like food lol. after tat i was mainly the one DOING ALL HER WORK cuz she WAS PLAYING ROCKBAND on MY PSP *hmph* xD hmmm, tats about it then =DDD

2009-07-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

the hangover doesnt last.

No One Else ads are almost done! hurray! im not currently working on the letters O and E after this is jus left with abit of trimming and im done =)

well, its been a really bz week, (3 weeks) mostly due to NO ONE ELSE, cuz i have been working on most of the letters solo...but then thank God for ppl like Kirby, Evangeline, Deborah, Elvin, Yu Heng, Phoebe and Abbygail hu helped out as well =D

haha, went over to Evan's house downstairs to do the letters, Sean was there too playing away Sims 3 on my laptop...he created himself a mansion, jus to demolish it a few mins lata cuz it was TOO BIG (waaaaadddd?) ya and he created himself a girlfren...AHHAHA so funny

hmmmm oh and another occasion was at G2, went there to cut boards too! and then left at around 6.30 to go to fencing. took bus 945? 985? i cant really remember, with Evan which was supposed to take me toa payoh mrt station...well, it DID pass by though =| but didnt stop and i nearly ended up at Geylang =P oh wells...at least i made it to newton eventually =P

anyways now is 2.48, jus hung the phone up with evan gdness, her school is like super eventful la...all the weird weird ppl LOLOL! haiz was finishing NO ONE ELSE ads as well, but realised tat i actually ran outta glue AGAIN and can onli continue tmw morning right before meryl comes...huh huh its gonna be a rush but oh wells. at least i know by tmw its all gonna be over =)

anyways gonna bathe then sleep now, i dunno how much longer i can stay awake, im not even tinking straight already huh huh gd nites all!

2009-07-03T22:27:00.001+08:00

unglam shot of me typing up water bombs =x randomness

2009-06-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

nobody nobody but you *clap clap clap*

OmG, i cant believe i jus typed tat as my title...anyways decided to post something since so much has happened...haha 1st things 1st

VBC was really fun, i got into a pillow fight in less than 5 mins after walking into my dorm...gdness i have this thing with kids tat makes me so attractive to bully sometimes =P. also met several ppl there who are a barrel of laughs such as Evangeline (Minah) Tan, Chloe, Janelle...haha anyways, Caleb and Joel Lee was there too...really really wouldnt have been as fun without them =D and Keith Chan took on the role as "talking wall" and we had to send PS Kwan Meng there to verify the message xDDDD either ways it was real fun and its gonna be hard to 4get =)

Grace Retreat 2009 was great! hahha really really interesting games and sermon was good...although not as unique as the LIFEgame but either ways its still loads fun playing the really really messy games...HAHA also my team scored the lowest, our points are in the negative la for crying out loud... -10 points leh!! jia lat sia and i really tink i under-spent during shopping hours, i should have jus went to Times Square...but nvm then, still loads fun

lastly was Youth Camp 09, i went there as helper which turns photographer =P haha, pretty great camp really...the G2 youths are SO MUCH MORE enthusiastic compared to G1...WOW man, i really wouldnt mind taking G2 batch if it is located nearer to my house...HAHAH ok nvm but it was real real fun...i had lots of fun with the camera too, and Evangeline came over to visit! YAY! it really made the day fun =) and we played with water abit and then she had to go home sadly =( anyways i tried my hand on creating a slideshow of the camp...and i dare say tat it was really not bad hehe.

ok we jus made a bet, see hu can stay awake the longest throughout the nite HAHAHA, gdness i onli had 2 hours of sleep the previous nite cuz i was doing the quiz. mans im already facing difficulty, my head keeps falling side to side and my eyelids are real heavy , and its onli less then 30 mins OH NOES. loser has to buy ice cream to the winner lor. ok i shall stop here...=P I MUST STAY AWAKE!!!!!!!

2009-05-30T10:08:00.002+08:00

1st post from a MacBook!

HAHA, yup i finally got my macbook liao! actually i got it about a week ago...but oh wells. anyways it really is great! didnt regret buying 1, although i still wish more programs can be run in this thing though =| it quite hard to find mac programs on _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ... =x lol

hmmm, easter service is now over...and the drama did a very impromptu skit, literally impromptu haha. yesterday went to watch/usher Fireproof the movie with Amanda, Deborah, David LIU and Alvin, which was shown in church...i dare say tat it was REALLY REALLY good...and funny hahha xD. i wanna buy the CD!! but nvm i shall get my dad to do so...

on the off-hand, im totally bz this few weeks! its so crazy la...i would like to describe it as a personal recession HAHA. and i predict tat it will improve onli after this month. =| sigh, but oh wells...even my pocket money is getting dry =.= theres VBC coming up, and i gotta finish the N.O.E ads by end of THIS FRIGGIN WEEK!!! also, retreat is up next week...gdness, im gonna die =( sigh, i tink i gotta put on hold all other incoming requests or volunteers for any other events bah =(((((( sadly.

anyways i gtg eat breakfast now, till i return (after a long time) stay beautiful! =D

2009-05-16T01:44:00.003+08:00

i jus wanted to hold u in my arms...

HaHaZ, im not supposed to stay awake now but its not like i couldn't care less...=| lol anyways, today went out to NYP to meet nat yee, haha to ATTEMPT to do up the upcoming drama script...and i dare say tat we didnt go very far =( but at least we did something! =D the rest of the time we spent there doing quizzes on facebook...lolz yea tats y my profile page has so many quiz results xD.

hmmm anyways, on the off-note. i kinda persuaded my dad to buy me a macbook already...haha FINALLY he seems more optimistic on getting one...huh huh and he better cuz im SOOOO gonna murder if he doesnt =P HAHA jkn...oh and tmw's choir auditions got postphoned, therefore i got more time till dance class! wootz, last week dance class was cancelled due to public holidays and i suffered from mild withdrawal symptoms =| LOLOL no lar! jkn nia...

also i finally got my fencing equipment, woots...well everything except for the rapier which i MIGHT collect tmw since im passing by tat area anyways =) hahha so HI CHARLENE!! in advance if i ever do pass-by xD...kkz i shall stop here now...short post for today and yea till next time, stay sane~ =)

2009-05-12T23:17:00.003+08:00

the past jus caught up with me...

hihiz, todays post wont be much...onli about my past. hmmm Nicole Liang was talking about her old blog and how different she was b4 and this kinda triggered in my mind "i wonder how i was back then?" and thus this lead me to read up all my old blog posts and omgdness...i couldnt believe tat i suffered tat much b4, and the worst part is tat i can relate to it once again...everything is rushing back like long lost memories returning to someone who suffered from amnesia. wow, its amazing tat the problems faced back then are so different from wad im facing now...so different but yet so similiar. haiz, i guess tat no matter wad i do and how i try, history sure has a tendency of repeating itself...

2009-05-09T04:21:00.004+08:00

singing without words...

1stly i would like to tank all the ppl whom i approached asking about mac computers and stuffs =) really helpful information...

2ndly, IM AT A DILEMA!!!...okok im trying (emphasis on TRYING) to get my parents to buy me a new computer cuz my current one i falling apart, =| yea and im compelled to buy a mac...reasons being;

my current laptop is falling apart
i don wanna buy another XP-based computer cuz its kinda outdated plus its kinda slow and boring after awhile =P
i hate Vista, okok not hate...more like DESPISE xD lolz jkn la...i jus dont really like Vista cuz of all the hoo-haas u gotta do jus to get 1 thing done, plus all the "permissions" u gotta grant the computer while opening a program or jus about anything =.=
im not intending to play games anymore, jus mayb minor games like er....hmmm...i dunno =| wow i really dont have any games in mind anymore =O. but facebook is a must so therefore i prefer mac cuz its lagless (almost) and i heard its really really good =)
oh and lastly, cuz im planning to use it for work/school use from now on...especially my upcoming FYPs and industrial attachments

yea tats about it...for dilema number 1. xD

now for number 2...im aiming for the new macbook series...so here are the 2 basic specs (warning, technical hoo-haas present)

SGD$2088

2.0ghz core 2 duo
13.3" screen
2gb RAM DDR3
160GB SATA HDD
nVidia GeForce 9400M GPU

SGD$2588

2.4ghz core 2 duo
13.3" screen
2gb RAM DDR3
250GB SATA HDD
nVidia GeForce 9400M GPU
illuminated keyboard

rite...so wads the dilema u may ask? well, i personally kinda tink tat the illuminated keyboard is WAY WAY cool, yea but heres the catch; i dont usually use my com in extra dark conditions plus the light from the screen could easily cast enough lighting on the keyboard, and im not really interested in the extra 0.4ghz speed increase in the 2.4k SGD model neither am i interested in the extra 90GB HDD space so yea...is the extra 500 bucks worth some light from the keyboard and a few extra perks? eg the 0.4ghz speed and 90gb hdd space? but keep in mind tat im planning to keep this laptop for a very very long time, unless it breaks down of course =P haha any feedback will be welcome!! =))

ok tats it for the dilema, currently right now i have got nth to do during my spare time...since im off gaming for good now, i tend to get bored REAL easily huh huh...plus i dont really got much cash on hand to go out often anymore =| if there are ppl to go out with in the 1st place xD. yea so im naturally stuck to my VIOLIN!!! YAY, i have finally picked up a new song =)))) still not even close to good yet though, i still suck ALOT haha but for starters, i say im at least moving somewhere =))

hmmm, also tat fickle minded-ness is still prominent now in my mind though =| i jus cant decide wad i want...but at least, the scale is now tipping to one side so i can KINDA put my mind at ease alittle onli =P haha...anyways i shall stop here, its like 4;43am haha and the reason why i can stay up so late is because i slept the entire day away...literally LOL!!! anyways till next time, stay beautiful =)

2009-04-27T21:52:00.001+08:00

Oh and this is for Caleb, hahaha thought u might wanna see this dude...=D others pls feel free to see it too~! =)

2009-04-27T21:07:00.002+08:00

for the life i lead

hahah sry for not blogging for so long =|...i cant say tat i have been busy but neither have i been free...but im jus kinda lethargic about blogging recently =( anyways, jus for updates i shall blog today =)

hmmm easter service passed, it was really great! hahah and yes the previous post was the song used in Elliot's scene =D...took me 54 tries to get it rite...and then another 11+ tries editing the video itself but it was all worth while hahha...the cast was great and i had lots of fun watching elliot slam my wallet on the floor, deborah dying like 1000000+ times, marshall burying deborah 1000000+ times, abbygail taking photos of shawn which elliot loves to tease about both of them being together...hahaha and lots of nat yee's constant "will i die if i jump from the 5th floor" thing xDDDD

hmmm school has reopened...which is mostly a bummer cuz im still in a holiday mood but then i cant skip school cuz the guilt will kill me LOL but yea so i jus take naps during lectures =x, BUT ONLY AFTER I COPIED THE NOTES!! hahaha yea...

okok er, i cant remember wad else happened...hmmmm oh rite, i joined the drama ministry in R-AGE...haha enjoyable bunch of ppl to work with srsly xD. and er...oh rite stuck to facebook.com nowadays thx to all the games such as 'MOUSEHUNT' which i finally conformed to...=D it aint half bad bah.

anyways, i kinda realised a half-bad-half-good truth...i no longer am a hardcore gamer =| hahha yea, games jus dont give me tat kick anymore lolololol but i still play them for relaxation though and sometimes for leisure =) haha haiz, i tink i tat im being more and more fickle minded...im always unsure of wad i want, and wad is good or bad for me, i no longer putting on a mask now but neither am i being myself...AHHHHHH see wad i mean by fickle minded?!?! HAHA, anyways i really hope its the school pressure. but its poly! wad pressure!?!? xD oh wells, must be my melancholic side acting up again =|

guess i jus need some laughs and sleep =)

2009-04-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

Emotionless...

Hey dad
im writing to u
not to tell u
tat i still hate u
jus to ask u
how u feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart

r u happy out there in this great wide world
do u tink about ur sons?
do u miss ur little girl?
when u lay ur head down
how do u sleep at nite?
do u even wonder if we're alrite
but we're alrite
we're alrite

its been a long hard road without u by my side
why werent u there all the nites tat we cried
u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life
its not ok but we're alrite
i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes
but those are jus a long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years learning how to survive
now im writing jus to let u know im still alive

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry
the scars run deep inside this tatooed body
theres things i'll take
to my grave
but im ok
im ok

its been a long hard road without u by my side
why werent u there all the nites tat we cried
u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life
its not ok but we're alrite
i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes
but those are jus a long lost memory of mine
now im writing jus to let u know im still alive
im still alive

sometimes i forget
and this time
i'll admit
tat i miss u
said i miss u

its been a long hard road without u by my side
why werent u there all the nites tat we cried
u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life
its not ok but we're alrite
i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes
but those are jus a long lost memory of mine
and now im writing jus to let u know im still alive

and sometimes
i forget
and this time
i'll admit
tat i miss u
said i miss u

hey dad...

2009-04-03T18:57:00.002+08:00

If I Let You Go
(by Westlife)

Day after day
As time pass away
And i just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I kept on searching
But i cant find

The courage to show
To letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again i'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will i ever see, you smiling back at me?
How will i know
If i let you go

Night after night
I hear my self say
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you
Who speaks to my heart
Its such a shame
We're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later i gotta choose
And once again i'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will i ever see, you smiling back at me?
How will i know
If i let you go

And once again i'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will i ever see, you smiling back at me?
How will i know
If i let you go

2009-03-20T08:36:00.003+08:00

After all this time...

HiHiZ! haha, and no this post isnt gonna be about anything at all...i jus wanna share a song which expresses my feelings once again xDDD, hahaha...i dunno why but i always seem to find tat songs are a great way to calm me down, its as if the song actually understands wad im going through word fo word...i feel like its sharing the same pain tat i have =D anyways heres the song lyrics, its definately an old song and i might have posted it b4, but its the lyrics tat matter =)

Blind
(by Lifehouse)

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as she turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

2009-03-10T00:58:00.004+08:00

its been a long hard road...

HiHiZ, long time no blog...haha hmmm due to me being bz with lots and lots of stuff recently...haha 1 being my exams which jus passed a week ago and im SURE im gonna screw it up xD another being tat i gotta plan for upcoming easter skit and lastly the fact tat i dun like to stick on the com for too long...LOL strange tat coming from me eh? but yes, i seriously dont really like staying on com games nowadays...=((( sad but oh wells, the feeling jus aint there anymore

hmmm, 1st i would like to talk about the easter skit planning...hahaha, it all started when i was at kirb's house when pasta rona called me and asked me to do the planning with nat yee...yupz, i agreed and so thus started the chain of really really cool happenings...HAHA at our 1st meeting i found out tat elliot was also part of the crew, YAY!! and wanna know wads the kool thing? ps rona was praying for names to call up to be in the committee...and nat yee's name was the 1st, mine was 2nd and elliot 3rd...SO COOL RITE?!?! haha we discussed much on the 1st meeting and kenneth came for the 2nd meeting, LOL wad a barrel of laughs...i shan't say any details out here so as to keep the suspence...sooooooooooo, if u wanna know more...ATTEND EASTER SERVICE on the 11-12 APRIL xD

next, is my exams, which i can easily summarize in 1 word...SCREWED! hahaha ok done.

3rdly, i realise tat i am beginning to dislike staying on the com more and more...the old kick i get outta games are long gone...apparently, hearing ppl's laughter seems to give me the high which i was sought for in games, especially if i was the one tat made them laugh =), hahaha weird...but wad can i say? hmmm, but this kinda scares me though...Lynn said tat i am growing up, but the thing is tat i DONT WANNA GROW UP JUST YET. i realized tat i wanna enjoy staying here in youth as much as i can, where im surrounded by such great frens and company such as KIRB, lynn, nicole liang, phuisee, caleb (even though i knew tat wasabi dude for a short time onli), kenneth, elliot, adler, zhonghan, kornelius and SO MANY MORE tat my blogspot would probably explode if i typed it all out xDDD HAHAHA.

Saltshakers, shall be wad this paragraph is about...haha hmmm we celebrated each others birthdays together as a cell WOOT! amazing stuff...haha the most recent being elsa's birthday which we held at pizza hut at plaza singapura...and omgdness it was so embarrassing tat they played the happy bday music so loudly and even repeated it SEVERAL TIMES...LOL i bet tat even ppl outside of the restaurant could hear it xD but it was fun as always with the Saltshakers =DDDD...hahaha and i jus realised tat we havent taken a FULL Saltshakers photo yet ever since the bowling event (thx lengshan for reminding me regarding tat SPECIAL bowling day *hope u get wad i mean*) lolz, we should probably force everyone to come down and take a FULL PHOTO xD lets try to get everyone to go for easter ya? hehehe

hmmm, lastly i would like to post about my upcoming job...its at:
Suntec Convention Centre
12th-15th March
PCconnect
COMPAQ PCs Exhibitor
so PLEASE visit me if u are free or passing-by, u have NO IDEA how boring it is there without gd frens around to talk and destress...cuz all my collegues tink about are revenues and commissions tat its sickening...argh very stressful till i gotta plug my ears with music to keep sane lol...

anyways tat concludes my super long post, enjoy reading it despite the fact tat the fonts are super small =( i couldnt find a way to enlarge it hahaha...oh wells, this post was made at 1:26am so pls forgive any really really illegible typos or grammatical mistakes =) i thank God for everything tat has happened =)

p.s nicole: oh and i tried counting the words, but was too lazy so i gave up halfway xD

2009-02-15T20:16:00.002+08:00

the bus is a very nice place to do some thinking...

i was jus about to play L4D again, but i decided not to haha it jus doesnt feel rite. as if im not living a life anymore.

anyways the main point is tat i wanna blog about wad i thought of on the bus today, i was on the way home and was listening to some switchfoot songs when the song "living is simple" came to my mind. then i wondered and pondered at the words, living is simple. and realised tat its really true...ppl nowadays are living out life so comfortably and not living out life extravagantly...okok when i said "extravagantly" i meant extravagantly FOR GOD! and not jus living a life simply bcuz its comfortable to them. i for 1 am a victim of this, i've been livin life really comfortably recently and realised tat ppl around are as well...but the thing is i KNOW GOD therefore i live by faith tat i am SAVED and am comfortable in HIS arms. unlike other non christians who DO NOT KNOW GOD and YET LIVE LIFE SO COMFORTABLY, its something tat i would like to call "comfortable ignorance".

sigh, haha hmmm...either ways, i wanted to blog about something else but it just slipped my mind. hahha anyway, went to kirb's church today and it was kool~...abit of getting used to but tats always the case whenever i visit another church...haha then ate lunch with the others and played L4D with them b4 reaching home and now here i am blogging.

oh and yesterday was valentines day...haha went to the REAL evangelistic thingy after 4getting tat im supposed to wear rhema 08 shirt and had to rush back home...then after the event, went to YA then ate dinner with grace and mingyang and nicole and lengshan and joseph ang and ka sheng and alot of ther frens...=D fun it was...xDD

hmmm guess tats about it, i recently feel down (actually i dunno wad im feeling but i jus feel like using the word 'down') hahha...anyways do tag, i sure could use some company =)))

p.s: frens can sure influence u in alot of ways =)) its a gd thing...

2009-02-08T01:59:00.007+08:00

the sad sad truth

hmmm recently ended cell at elsa's house which was fun haha, her mum makes good fruit punch (seriously) xD...celebrated lengshan's birthday there too! =D super funny, even though she kinda knew it was coming but oh wells, a surprise is still a surprise xD

anyways tats not wad i wanna blog about today actually, went i reached home LAN (Lengshan And Nicole xDDD) sent me a link of a video...its called "Inconvenient Jesus"

its bout this man who wants to stay in touch with Jesus...he talks to Him once he gets home and tells Him about his day, wants Jesus to hang around more often and make Himself feel at home. but jus as the man was about to have a meaningful conversation, his phone rang and his frens invited him to a big party...the man refused twice, saying tat he had already made a committment to talk to Jesus, but the phone rang a 3rd time, and it finally got through him and the man left for the party...but when Jesus offered to follow him, the man refused!! he said tat "you can't come, not for this one..." but Jesus kept insisting, and the man got really angry and NAILED JESUS IN HIS HOME.

i tink tat the story is really true, as in...we sometimes want Jesus alot, but then the devil calls us and tempts us...and once the devil succeeds we are stuck with it, and will begin to outcast Jesus from our lives. we can never have both Jesus and the devil in our lives!

just as the saying goes in matt 6:24 "No one can serve two masters.Either he will hate one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money"...well in the verse it said money, but it still carries the same meaning...

yea tats tat...hmmm recently got lots of happenings lately, haha Saltshakers were proposed to do the skit again for Grace Family Day! hmmm still pending though, but i really do hope tat we can pull this one through =D all for the extention of HIS kingdom...haha i jus watched the skit we did during Rhema08, still as touching as ever to me xD anyways gotta sleep now...very tired and tmw gotta wake up early...bb!

p.s: sometimes jus gotta tink things through b4 making a decision. most importantly, after being through thick & thin...isit really worth the sacrifice?
they'll make it through...just like they did b4 =)

2009-01-31T23:13:00.002+08:00

U THAN FUNNEH!

lolz, yea ur funny alrite xD anyways...realized tat i havent been blogging lately, due to a certain familiar feeling called "lethargy" setting in ever single time...and as some might have known, when lethargy comes, i jus let it sink in HAHAHA

hmmm nth much really, cell group was fun with the Saltshakers at Joseph's house haha and ivan is really gd at complaining over the phone xD woot~!

CNY had jus ended and i get to keep my money this year! haha not much but oh wells, shall not post the amount here jus incase i see thieves and ninjas hanging around my house LOL...but its not much really.

sundays are as usual the most eventful day of the week, ate out with alot of church frens..."(fill in word of ur choice) than you!!" being the most popular phrase so far... SO FUNNY!! (funny la you!!) xD, hmmm cant wait for tmw once again it being a sunday...duh~

and oh btw i got a super cool protector for my HTC Touch HD, haha its great!! but i left the old screen protector on the HP cuz i prefer the old one to the new one...haha i can finally handle my handphone like a MAN, unlike last time when i have to carefully place it down or slowly slide it in my pockets cuz i was afraid of scratching it xD

oh and i reformatted my com, haha like finally...but then i 4got to save all my msn emoticons so now they're all GONEEEEEE!! SADDED but oh wells...its much faster now and im grateful for tat...haha anyways i'll blog some other time when the sky falls or when the moon turns blue xD

p.s: imitation is the sincerest form of flattery
(thx elsa) xD

2009-01-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

these days were rather eventful =)

1stly i got a haicut (yes i know, u got a problem with tat?) against my will
hmmm, it aint tat bad after u style it...but i still miss my long hair =(
2ndly cell today was fun, we went to joseph's house this time HAHA and he joined us as well haha. and planned about wad to do with the upcoming Saltshaker's bdays hehe

after tat went to bugis to shop for clothings, well mostly its shopping for nicole's clothes but i had to buy mine as well so i picked some up along the way...went to macs after tat to slack and eat supper and i jus realised tat i spent WAY to much money =(((((

now at home bored outta my wits and i gotta get my printer working if not i cant print the cell materials for tmw!! DIE!

haha tats bout it bah, holidays are coming soon but tat also means exams are jus around the korner xD

2009-01-19T14:38:00.003+08:00

haha this is my 1st post by handphone lol so please ignore the spelling mistakes haha

hmmm nth much to post about actually, recently got my new phone, the HTC Touch HD lol yay!

other than tat, went to sentosa to celebrate phoebe's birthday which was fun despite the fact tat i had sand in my hair, in my pants, and got thrown into the sea 3 times!! haha and got a very bad sunburn lo, the next time im going there, im gonna ride the luge no matter wad hahha

then went to lengshan's house for saltshaker's cell which was taught by elsa =) on lesson about the book of daniel, and nicole was there too! hahha so funny!! even though she slapped my sunburnt back like twice lol

hmmm ok i shall pause here for now got a stomach ache...dou!

2009-01-10T23:02:00.004+08:00

NUTTELLA CAKE!!

Aaron, Russell, Elsa, Lengshan, Joanne at my place! =D

HAHA, jus ended "cell" at my place.
it was super fun! LOL
basically, elsa went to fetch lengshan while aaron and i went to buy dinner for them
russell and joanne stayed at my place cuz they were lazy or tired, whichever makes u happy

lolz, i remembered tat aaron and i almost took 30 mins jus to get the food bcuz we kept "forgetting" them, jus to find out tat they were keeping me out so tat they can revamp my entire house with balloons and stuffs xD HAHAHAH so funny, i almost died of shock LOL, i was so afraid of my parents coming home to see it. but thank God that tat didnt happen. they even got me a bdae cake which was nuttella chocolate flavour! SO NICEEEEEEEEEEEE, wow man, and lengshan kinda screwed my kitchen stove, well not exactly cuz it was already screwed b4 xD

after tat we finally went on to cell, and discussed somethings about the future cell meetings...and laughed our butts off at jokes as well HAHAH, Saltshakers NEVER fail to laugh =DDD

woot! my very FIRST BIRTHDAY SURPRISE! seriously its my very 1st bday surprise, no kidding...haha and its also the BEST surprise i could ever get =) YAYYYY SALTSHAKERS!!!

2009-01-09T09:00:00.002+08:00

what age do you act?

ok whilst readin elsa's blog, i came upon this kool servey thingy...HAHA so i decided to take it...anyways, results are at the post below...and im positive tat some ppl would LAUGH once they see it. LOL.

anyways this week has been really really weird...haha i suddenly bcame a 'pon tang king'...in this 1 week, i pon-ed more than i ever pon-ed in the entire term...OMGDNESS tats scary come to tink of it...stupid holiday mood, seems like lethargy is not the onli feeling tat sinks in once it happens hahha.

anyways tmw is sat and cell is at my place again...so if ur a Saltshaker CM, pls do keep tat in mind. details were on the past email i sent regarding address and such~... =D see ya there, we'll most probably be discussing bout the shirt and rosters and all.

2009-01-09T08:58:00.000+08:00

You Act Like You Are 11 Years Old

You are a kid at heart. You never quite really grew up.
You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

Playful and fun, you bring a lighthearted attitude to every part of life.
You're a little irresponsible, but your charm makes up for it (in most cases)!

What Age Do You Act?

2009-01-03T23:18:00.007+08:00

sitting in the middle of this room
silent as night as it seems
but in the mind
oh the shouts, the panic, the screams

that same familiar feeling
oh how you dread it
it messes with your head, reeling and twisting
making you wish you were dead

no, it keeps you alive
laughing at your futile attempts to survive

go away, you scream like theres no tomorrow
the more you try, the more it brings sorrow
you turn on the radio, the tv, hoping that the voice would just die
but you know that that's just some pathetic alibi

given up you lie on the bed, trying to pull yourself together
watching your life through closed eyes
feeling as if your every decision made was an error
and that every answer to you, blatant lies

waking up to a tear-soaked pillow
that once paranoid space, now hollow
looked around, nothing changed
i left the house, feeling nothing more than disarranged

Paranoia

2009-01-03T13:59:00.005+08:00

愛的主旋律

是你在那个雨季,
走进我生命
带着一点任性,
和温柔的表情

是你在那个雨季,
赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容,
换我仅有的甜蜜

天上一万颗星星,
我却只看见你
你说这是幸运,
还是不可思议

身边有太多风景,
我却停在这里
说我傻的可以,
还不是因为你

是你的声音,
带给我勇气
恋爱的频率,
直到我心底
如果你愿意,
是的我愿意
带着我幸福的主旋律

从前的实际,
现在我相信
天空会放晴,
爱会更甜蜜
如果你愿意,
是的我愿意
爱的主旋律永远唱下去

2009-01-02T09:58:00.003+08:00

haha i just woke up..and realised onli after about 20 mins tat my parents arent at home..lolz anyways, went to watchnite service on the 31st of dec (duh) hmm it was ok, nearly fell asleep cuz i was reading revelations for no apparent reason...oh wells

oh yea and b4 we went to watchnite, went to meet up with the sec1s (most of them) and had a fun time TRYING to decide wad to do and where to go...HAHAHA at 1st it was jus aaron, josiah and me with denise and hsuenchi and phoebe...then when we FINALLY decided to eat at food republic, elsa came...THANK GOD i tinks she is the onli person tat can ACTUALLY manage/entertain the sec 1 girls PROPERLY (i tried and failed terribly btw)

anyways we went to catch a movie after tat at westmall cuz the cinema at vivo was packed and overflowing to the brim...and caught the show YESMAN...HAHA hilarious.

went to the arcade when russell and abigail and victoria and esna came along...and the sec 1 girls arent tat bad playing basketball i tell u....they are really really not bad.. haha

went to koufu to eat dinner..and MADE charlene say grace...lol...and went to watchnite after tat at G2. =) THE NEW YEAR IS HAPPY DUDES!! xD

p.s: I CANT WAIT FOR THE 1st SALTSHAKERS CELL OF 2009!! =)))

2008-12-29T12:31:00.002+08:00

sigh...

currently now in school waiting for class to start, which is taking surprisingly long given the fact tat this teacher is rather on time...haha.

anyways 'celebrated' the last sec 1s cell, in which was their graduation event.. hmmm was really really fun, except for waking up at 6am in the morning jus to rush down to church to prepare the stuffs...LOL but it all paid off =) anyways, we played games and had worship and even did a presentation from the Saltshakers CMs to the sec 1s, HAHA we sang 'More than words' but due to lack of practice, well...we cant say tat we are exactly audiable...xD LOL but it all turned out pretty well (with the Saltshakers, anytime is fun xD)

hmmm, went to the potluck for dinner at Boon Lay which was the other side of Singapore for me...played hopskotch for close to an hour with caleb, nicole, phuisee...HAHA so fun...then had dinner b4 playing polar bear with the rest...heheh was fun

oh wells...class has jus begun so i gtg now...cya latas, im gonna say this again i really really am gonna miss this year :(

2008-12-27T13:18:00.003+08:00

B0r3d!!

wasting my time at home now tat all the major events have passed...sigh...
its almost the end of the year already
hu knows wad next year has in stored
but oh wells,
im still gonna miss this year haha

lolz so far xmas was fun and all, went to church to do some carolling...
got lots of presents from my beloved friends
and lots of cool stuff i tell u (i got a maigc wand too) xD
but now its like the 27th of dec
tmw is my last day of holidays
AND I DONT WANNA STAY AT HOME
lolz, jus have to keep myself bz
been practicing on the violin recently...well i couldnt say i have gone far...haha
oh wells

2008-12-24T07:05:00.002+08:00

its raining!

HaHa today is the eve of Christmas day! and i jus woke up at about 7.00am lolz, it jus comes natural to me...haha anyways went to church-friends chalet with half of the Saltshakers and alot of other buddies from church...LOL wad a joke, we startin singing our lungs out while BBQ-ing till some guy incharge of the chalet came to tell us to quieten down...=.= WHO ON EARTH KEEPS QUIET IN A CHALET?!?! aHAHA oh wells...went to play pool after tat and further realized tat i SUCK at it but i couldnt be bothered, jus playing for fun =D. well its been a fun year with Rhema Conference and Saltshakers and all, i compared the skit with all my other 7 variations and realized tat ours is the BEST!! WOOT! haha anyways gonna do some shopping later for Christmas =) till then.......stay together :)

p.s: cant wait till the Saltshakers shirt is done xD

2008-12-18T16:37:00.004+08:00

walking down that door

Rhema Conference 2008, had just ended yesterday. wad a great experience, it seems like every Rhema is better than the previous ones hahaha and i gotta admit tat the committee did put in alot of effort in order to bring this conference to a whole new level...ahaha so great job u guys!

lolz and oh oh oh about the skit, I WAS SO HAPPY when i saw blood! haha not the REAL blood, but the one from the knife i was so worried tat it might have dried up in the bottle. LOL anyways i heard from a couple of ppl tat the skit was super impactful and quite some cried...haha nth made me happier than tat. so EXCELLENT JOB U GUYS! haha WE MADE A MARK IN SPIRITUAL HISTORY!!

wellz, tats all i wanna blog about for now...still kinda in the post-rhema syndrome, i feel very sad tat its over...oh wells, im sure theres gonna be better things up ahead and im gonna look forward to it...wad about u? xD

sigh, i am really gonna miss the rehearsals & the Saltshakers

2008-12-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

Rhema Conference 08!

hahaha, yupz now its 0127 am and tmw its RHEMA 08!!! HAHAH too bad im not in the main committee this year but hey, im in the sub-comm for logistics AGAIN! HAHAH woot! plus kirb too...hehe anyways wont be online till 18th dec which would be after rhema 08...lolz anyways tired now gtg le so anyways cya in rhema 08! haha

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2008-12-13T00:28:00.001+08:00

2008-12-10T17:50:00.004+08:00

math math math, and MORE MATH!!

lolz, 1 thing bout blogspot i comparision to wordpress is tat u gonna type out ur own title...HAHAHA anyways doing maths now, and i tink i can predict my results already...LOL downhill all the way dudezzz...anyways jus jkn haha this blog is now 're-activated' due to the fact tat i cant stand not having a tag board and no music on the blog...HAHAHA anyways blog more bout retreat and such lata...now its jus math and me...spending some quiet romantic time together *shiver shiver, shiver shiver* LOL

2008-06-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

...My Eternal Haven...

HiHiZ...hmm this is jus a notification post...im moving to wordpress!! ahahah so this blog will be rather inactive from now on...lolz...anyways phui see moved to wordpress as well haha....anyways my link will be www.eternalhaven.wordpress.com anyways i haven posted anything new yet on tat blog but i will soon =D see ya there!

2008-06-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

...Be A Disciple...

HiHiZ...jus returned from Grace Retreat 2008!! WOOHOO...it was such a blast, the youths had to play LIFEgame and it was great...basically we lived life almost as close to the real world as possible within a tim frame of 3 days. hmmm lets start from the beginning, i got a bachelor scholarship, got a job as a high ranking policeman, got married =P, bcame a widower (at a early age, sadly), went into depression...and then died...not literally, but thank God it was just a game!! hmmm, i managed to bring home alot of things other than physical items...and tat is something spiritual...haha and im glad tat i went for this retreat ^^

2008-06-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

...LOL c(^.^c)...

HaHaZ...im persuaded to blog today LOLZ...anyways im talking to Kirb on da phone rite now, lolz nth much to post about actually. Hmmm, today was vocal presentation day haha, did "To Know Your Name" for my solo presentation...hehe it went well. hmmm doing group presentation on wk 11 which is 2 weeks from now. hahha oh btw, im planning to join the SPF for my "NS" which is basically a 6 months basic police officer course hehe then after tat 5 yrs of working as a police officer...hmmm its ok i guess, cuz i really enjoyed my days in NPCC and i missed it. so yea there i go~, anyways im getting a gastric gonna eat dinner now...haha P.S my greatest work of art...is a PEANUT.

2008-05-21T20:23:00.004+08:00

...A Spectrum Of Voices...
(a choral concert by NYGH, ft. CHIJ St.Nic)

LoLz...gotta post about this, hmmm i recently went for this concert by NYGH, i was invited there by Deborah xD, haha gotta comment tat it was GREAT...lolz, i tink tats cuz i love choir concerts. anyways it last about 2hrs+ i guess... and my fav part was when they sang the song "My Favourite Things" and "Sound Of Music" by Richard Rodgers...damn, tat brings back memories from young as well...LOL anyways my 3rd favorites were "Sunrise, Sunset" by NYGH & "Kimi O No Sete" by CHIJ St.Nic. haha anyways it has gd, lolz cant wait for another choral concert to come up xD

2008-05-21T20:02:00.010+08:00

...Check it out yo peanut butter!!~...

HiHiZ...ignore the title, haha it had been awhile since i blogged, a 1000 apologiz (i had no idea how to spell tat) to frenz hu were visiting my blog in anticipation hehe. anyways erm, started the 2nd sem, and it has been average so far if not below average...hmmm time flew pretty fast i guess. probably cuz most of my past sem frens are in majority of the same class as i am now...haha lucky me. anyways, my EC teacher, Mr Loh KK fainted yesterday...zZz tats wad i heard, he jus left the class and didnt come back, i was wondering wad happened...anyways i was damn sad, he is a very gd teacher, as in superb...haha very very nice person. i prayed tat he would get well soon and guess wad? HE DID!! haha saw him in school today, though a little pale, but at least on his feet again haha. anyways went to kirb's TP and met his uber cool frens. lol, funny bunch of bastards (<--sarcastic LOL).. my vocal group and i are planning to do the song "Amazing Grace" by Chris Tomlin for vocal presentation, so if anyone has its melody or harmony notes...PLS TELL ME!!! meanwhile im gonna sing "I Will Run To You" by Hillsongs for my solo presentation, and once again if anyone has its melody or harmony notes pls do inform me...THZ... i dont wanna post too long so i will stop here xD.

2008-04-19T09:12:00.004+08:00

...It Ends Tonight...
(All-America Rejects)

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to figh
tIt ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

ThIs song jus represents how i feel about things right now, i cant explain it with words so i decided to use music instead...

2008-04-09T13:05:00.002+08:00

...I Believe, a choral concert...

YeA, i went to the concert jus last nite...haha damn i almost couldnt find my wallet at home jus to discover tat it was in the side pocket of the laptop bag i was using...zZz spent 30mins searching the entire place, got paranoid and almost gave up...but anyways i managed to go to the concert whilst meeting up with Cherry and Gerad on the way. lolz and damn the concert was GODLY...except for the crowd, i mean, they were cheering so loudly like nobody's business and i was getting annoyed...it really ruined the entire mood la, as in, the choir were singing slow and melodic songs then after tat some jack-ass students yelled out like as if it was some Project Superstar (WHICH IT ISNT!!) damn it man, would have been much more better if tat didnt happen. anyways met Momo and Phui See after tat together with Marcus/and parents. hmmm congratulated Phyllis & Cassandra & Joy. then left for dinner/supper at macs with Cherry...had a gastric coming up xD whilst Momo and Phui See left for home...haha damn after the entire thing i regretted not joining choir in my school =.= CRAP! well, at least i got back into my vocal classes haha

2008-04-09T13:00:00.002+08:00

...How to remove TAR off ur slippers trick!...

LoL, didnt post for quite sometime so im gonna put up a double post today. hmmm 1st thing i wanna blog about is the day when kirb and i went to the beach cycling...haha it was damn stupid, we cycled halfway then stopped to play psp, then decided to go to a nearby breakwater(ok fine the breakwater was my idea) but anyways went there...then kirb decided not to go up cuz the tide was rising, but as if i cared...lolz and i went up jus to come down again...haha but strangely our slippers, especially kirbs got tar on it...and soon the tar went to our pants and shirts, we tried to rub it off on a tree trunk but it didnt work out well...zzz lolz we later realized tat it was from the sea itself which was rather disgusting haha then after tat we jus went back to kirbs house to wash up b4 i left for home...

2008-03-30T00:26:00.004+08:00

...Assumptions...

U might have seen this title b4, but who cares. lolz, recently alot of things have happened, both joyful and disturbing. i went out with May, Cherry, Joy, Annlyn recently to TM to have lunch and pass joy her concert ticket money...haha cant wait till the day. hmmm after tat we went to the nearby pasamalam and kua kua for awhile. lolz, in total Cherry, May and i went there for about 4 times b4 we managed to FINALLY buy something on the last day xD. anyways tats all there is to it for the joyful occasions. Well, there have been pretty much lots of disturbing news as well. i sha'nt go into details wad they are, but it ALL LEADS DOWN TO 1 ANSWER : ASSUMPTIONS. As humans, we tend to act out wad our emotions tells us, even though there isn't any solid evidence tat we can actually act upon. We can't tell the future as well, so therefore we make decisions tat SEEMS right at tat point of time. Unfortunately these actions can't be helped, for we are made this way, we HAVE to encounter problems, but fret not for its not the "Happy Ending" tats impotant, its the process in which we acquire it.

2008-03-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

...0132...

TiMe now is 1.32am, yupz, 1.32am. basically i really dont feel like sleeping so i decided to try playing CabalSEA through out the nite...but after awhile it seems kinda stupid so i decided to blog instead. anyways continuation from the previous post, ahah i went to meet up with kirb on sunday to join his church's bowling competition, cool rite? lolz obviously we didnt win, but it was hell lots of fun...we played 2 rounds and i got 2 strikes and 2 spares ONLY!! damn, anyways then we played a 3rd round but we were so sian of it tat we decided to anyhow try out stupid moves like bowling backwards or using ouor left hand instead xD haha hmmm then after tat kirb gotta leave for his fren's bdae party (although i couldnt go) and i went on home...OH AND BTW we met Mr Tan at Marina Square!! haha and Mrs Tan as well, lolz really such a coincidence, i immediately shouted to kirb tat they are there, damn tat must have really been embarrassing xP...anyways time now is 1.38am...and i shall stop here

2008-03-23T20:31:00.002+08:00

...Sweet Victory...

is the name of the song in my blog and the song tat im listening to as well...xD anyways very busy practicing for some skit the past few days, it was about CSI Jerusalem. hehe cool rite? its actually for the pre-teens in my church and G2 so too bad too all those lao laos there haha...anyways i jus finished the skits...there were 4 performances in total, sat's CC1 and sun's CC1 CC2 and G2 CC1...omgdness, it was so tiring, we rushed from end to end. lolz but in the end it was all worth it heheh. oh yea i went to the Nevareth Carnival on 21st...the crowd was CRAZY! as in, i was jus on time for the opening and there was this queue of about a few hundred? it started from inside the suntec mall, and trailed through the toilets, out the emergency fire exit and ended OUTSIDE the mall. jia lat...i queued there for close to an hr b4 registering lolz. anyways im tired now, ttyl.

2008-03-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

...Ascension...

HiZ...dont mind the title, i jus got it from C&C3 Kane's Wrath...haha its coming out on the 24th March, but i dont tink im getting it jus yet. im gonna make kirb buy it 1st then test it on my laptop jus incase it wont work. lolz anyways hmmm i cant blog much about wad we did on thursday though, cuz im afraid my parents might see the post. yea trust me, it happened b4...and its so OMG anyways we made spaghetti!! haha it tested great and watched the Date Movie, lolz its so wrong but funny as well haha anyways i will stop here.

2008-03-09T23:48:00.004+08:00

...In a Cage...

JuS finished changing the hamsters' cage from the old and busted to the new heist. haha anyways it took me more than 1 hr jus to sort things out in the new cage...man im telling u its so complicated. haha anyways its finally finished...hmmm nth else today other then having a worship course and then cell group tats it...haha oh btw heres the result of some kinda questionaire Phyllis asked to do. xD

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Physical Touch and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Quality Time:		9
Words of Affirmation:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4
Acts of Service:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2008-03-08T13:44:00.002+08:00

...LaZy...

SrY about the late posting...i was jus too darn lazy. anyways, CabalSEA has finally gone into its open beta phase!! WOOT! haha this is 1 of the main reasons why i cant blog xD. also recently i have taken a liking to the game Half Life, lolz i know its abit delayed but i jus find it interesting all of a sudden. hehe anyways Cherry dyed my hair recently again at Joy's place, and they were having such fun with my hair haha i wonder why~ anyways my father is being lame again gtg eat now, ttyl...

2008-02-23T16:24:00.002+08:00

...Life Goes On?...

It has been a short while since i blogged, and i kinda missed it. But meantime, i have been thinking and i found out that it takes 2 hands to clap, and i guess that i am 1 among the 2. I guess...i was part to be blamed as well.

Sorry adj 1.feeling regret for something you have done. 2.feeling sympathy or pity. 3.miserable. 4.THE MOST POWERFUL WORD IN THE WORLD - adapted from Enan

2008-02-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

...Im Ok...

Valentine's Day is just over...nth much happened other than tat...basically im not really in the mood to blog rite now...i will jus post the lyrics of songs which will explain wad i want to say...they are the previous 2 posts.

2008-02-15T14:13:00.002+08:00

...As Lovers Go...
(Dashboard Confessional)

She said "I've gotta be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishing round here."
And I said "you must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling... this feeling is real"
She said "you gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?"
You've got wits, you've got looks,
You've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong.
All wrong.
But you got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you...
If you'll just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

And I said "I've gotta be honest
I've been waiting for you all my life.
"For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane,
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
You've got wits... you've got looks,
You've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

Tonight.
Tonight.
But you've got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you...
If you'll just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

2008-02-15T13:54:00.002+08:00

...I Think God can Explain...
(Splender)

Theres a lot of things I understand,
And theres a lot of things,
That I dont want to know.
But youre the only face, I recognize,
its so damn sweet of you,
To look me in the eyes.

Chorus:
Its all right, Im o.k.
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed, Ill get over it yet

The scent of vaseline,
In the summertime,
The feel of an ice cube,
Melting over time,
The world seems bigger than both of us,
Yet it seems so small, when i begin to cry

Its all right, Im o.k
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed, ill get over it yet

Im so much better than you guessed,
Im so much bigger than you guessed,
Im so much brighter than you guessed.

Its all right, Im o.k.
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed, ill get over it yet,

Ill get off of your back,
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain

2008-02-13T22:08:00.003+08:00

...STOP THINKING!!...

HaIz...i really really hate being paranoid...DARN!! seriously its getting on my nerves, my mind jus keeps wondering round and round and it wont stop till it gets anwers. i feel like as if its a split personality. sigh...Valentine's day is tmw, apparently i met up with Phyllis and the rest to pass to them their valentine's day gifts. gotta pass to phyllis hers tmw cuz it went outta stock...hahaha. anyways im dead bored and tat means paranoia creeping up on me again. sigh, when u need a listening ear, no one is there haha...but when u wanna be alone, everyone is here to disturb u. Lol. anyways i really really dunno, everyone seems to be hiding something, i dunno why but im super freaked out rite now...ARGH! i feel like a retard...darn

PS: am i missing something?

2008-02-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

...BORED!!...

YeS...i am really really bored outta my wits now, im not onli bored...im tired as well, today went to church at 9am then dunno where to go so i decided to go kirby's church and then to his house to play a while. after tat headed back home and here i am now...going to fall asleep soon, i even accidentally smsed someone so many times jus to find out tat i was smsing the wrong number...zZz it was some stranger. woah im so bored now, i cant imagine wad it would be like tomorrow morning then. >=( nvm, hopefully i would find something to pass my time then.

2008-02-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

...You Are Loved...

HiHiZ...hmmm today was a super boring day, until i went to Phyllis's house to celebrate CNY. Phyllis, Phui see, Enan was there and it was a barrel of laughs. haha apparently 1stly its cuz my belt wasnt doing wad its meant to do, keeping my pants up, my pants jus keeps falling! and i had to go buy another 1 at IP zone after meeting them up. then it was to phyllis's house...haha her mom made us eat as much as we can to finish up the goodies...lolz as usual i went straight for the ba gua xD, hmmm after tat phyllis was playing with her cousin's DS and i was erm...dunno doing wad, and phui see was mapling, enan was using my PSP...haha phyllis's cousin is super guai, i wish my cousins were like tat. but oh well. anyways we ate and phyllis and phui see played majong, and i have no clue wad was happening as usual. haha...after tat we headed to airport to see lee xuan off and at the same time took several picts of our reflections xD anyways tats about it, im gonna watch "it started with a kiss 2" le...haha bb sallies!

ps: the picts were taken using phyllis's camera.. so it will most probably be on her blog instead...............so Phyllis's blog~ is over there!! c(^.^c)

2008-02-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

...Maverick...

ToDaY was supposed to be a happy day for us all, but unfortunately i jus don feel so...sigh...anyways woke up in the morning and went through the normal routine of CNY, getting ang paos and all. after tat went to grandmother's place and ate, then went to hospital to see my g.grandmother i guess.. =P anyways i met my aunt's side again haha. after tat went home and maplesea'd for an hour till now. sigh i wanna watch CJ7!! but phyllis apparently went to watch it before i did and now she is trying to make me feel jealous...and strangely, it worked. zZz anyways the virus seems to be gone or hiding somewhere in my laptop now. tats it...i guess...

P.S: Phyllis and Cherry gave me a new name; Mr Maverick...ZZZ!!
Maverick noun someone who refuses to conform, a determined individualist.

2008-02-05T02:40:00.000+08:00

...Anti-Virus...

HiHiZ...hmmm jus to let u all know, i began typing this post at 2:41AM!! +8GMT...yes, tat means in the early morning when everyone is sound asleep in their beds. unfortunately for me, i jus got a BRAND NEW VIRUS on my laptop! YAY!! and this time its a tough 1...wad a day, in the afternoon i went out and played CabalSEA testing at E2 after walking around orchard for the entire afternoon with kirby. went home dead tired, ate dinner and talked on the phone conference with phyllis and joy, and after tat with phui see while mapling abit. then BOOM...HERE IT COMES TO WRECK MY DAY~!! a virus was born on my laptop zZz. wadaday, now while im trying all sorts of different virus scanners, i decided to post alittle haha. anyways i dont wanna flood this blog so i will end here and post my results of the virus later in the morning then.wish me luck.

2008-02-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

grinning at herself xD
Momo "doing hw"
Dont Fren You!
Phyllis getting hungry xD

Acting like Cassandra
i dunno wads she tinking bout
emo!
zi lian!

...A Day at Phyllis House...

YuPz...went out with Momo and Phyllis together with her parents hahha, went to tiong bahru and ate Mcdonalds with them. Then took the MRT to Phyllis's house LOL it was super funny there la. we snatched around with Momo's laptop until the batt was like 70% then we gave it back to him to let him do his higher chinese homework which is basically watching a Jay Chou MV and describing about it zZz..anyways while momo was busy typing, phyllis and i were busy playing with our cameras haha taking zi lian photos and taking each other taking zi lian photos xD so funny la...anywas after momo finished with his hw, phyllis had a "GREAT" idea!! she and momo decided to "tatoo" my feet and arms...omgdness la so funny but ticklish as well, lolz. after tat we watched License to Wed for 20mins b4 heading off haha anyways i gave Phyllis my ccss NPCC junior shirt so tat she can keep herself dry on the way home...lolz and she is gonna give me her SACSS pe shirt as an exchange. LOL anyways THOSE are the picts for today!

2008-01-27T08:06:00.000+08:00

...How to grow a Chilli Plant...

LoL, yea erm yesterday there was combined service and pasta rona was talking about fruits and bearing fruits for God. haha it was funny and guess wad, they gave each and everyone of us a small little styrofoam cup with 3 chilli seeds LOL. and we're supposed to grow them in to chilli plants. anyways after tat i took a photo of "Dont fren you" well almost all were there =P, hmm took a cab to expo while giving ivan and phyllis a lift to expo as well, since its near their houses anyways. erm man i tell u it was super tiring working at expo, 1stly: ALMOST everyone tat went to watch the show were chinese, and if u know me, my chinese couldnt make it for nuts. zZz, anyways i had to pass around lucky draw coupons and make them fill up their particulars haha. sadly Kirb couldnt make it to help me out, it was like 3 hours for $50!! tats alot of cash! anyways nth much after tat lar, jus came home bathed and slept lol. and oh btw i didnt sign up for auditions for praise dancers cuz i tink i dont have the time to commit...sianz oh well mayb next time then

2008-01-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

...4 PROJECTS!!...

OmGdNeSs...i got 4 projects to hand up by this or next week!!! haha i jus finished 2 of them already, digital electronics project was a running christmas light circuit. PCB project was a Printed Circuit Board kinda project which was super easy...well those are 2 out of the 4 in which i finished. another 2 more to go, creativity and innovation, and also programming techniques...sigh programming is so difficult la. other than tat there was nth much, lolz went to eat at TM on erm saturday with Phui See and Phyllis, and Phui See bought 2 new year clothes. i could have bought a new hp if they had stock...zZz anyways erm it was funny haha then after tat Phyllis had to go soon so we left. lolz and i gotta buy my clothes this wednesday! haha anyways tats it, im really tired from today...had japanese oral presentation and a maths test tomorrow...zZz anyways i will blog more about tat tmw...gd bye....sallies!

2008-01-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

...Now I'm On My Own Side...

Im suffering from a sickness called paranoia..haha ya seriously i tend to over tink somethings.. but its ok im kinda used to it, lolz. anyways tmw is my birthday and hmmm u can say im kinda looking forward to it (kinda*) anyways school is as monotonous as usual and i got alot of projects to hand in by next week...oh yea almost forgot, i might consider joining Praise Dance haha ya suprising? not really, i have always liked dance, its 1 of the few ways i can express myself..jus like NYP dance group's catch phrase, Dance to EXPRESS, not to IMPRESS...haha seriously. anyways strangely alot of problems have been crapping up recently, i dunno whether this is onli for my frenz case or mayb im jus being paranoid lolz...anyways im sure God can fix it =)

2008-01-01T22:58:00.001+08:00

...Corners of your line...

HiZ...its New Year, 2008 already...time really flew so fast. i can remember so far back and how much we all changed...but either ways the past has already been done. all we can do is put all the past good and bad things where it belongs, in our memories...(quoted from Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children =) lolz i love tat show! haha...seriously recommend it...lol oh yea the Watchnite service at G2 was super packed...every single seat was filled up and we had a hard time organising the ppl around...haha anyways it was fun bah...lolz ok gtg le tmw got school and i wanna sleep...gd nitez...

2007-12-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

...Cavalier...

HmMm...title has no relation to wadeva this post is about...lolz...anyways this is the last day of my 2 weeks off from school...woah!! its so fast...with Rhema, leaders retreat and all the other activities tat took place lar...sigh but nvm gd news is tat its onli 1 month and a week b4 my next holiday!! tats pretty fast compared to the previous 2 months...phew...haha anyways nth much recently...jus received the rest of the xmas presents and they were great...haha anyways post more tmw...nw im like tired after today's treat by jeraldine at Swensens...hehe so cool...

2007-12-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

...Euphony...

ToDaY...mmm nth much after the combined service in G1...haha Christmas fever was on everyone and there was alot of gift exchanging...lol and i felt so bad not getting so many ppl anything at all...im like broke after going out with phyllis buying presents for "Don't Fren You" ppl...haha anyways the main event of the day was the concert held by QTSS and GESS...oh man i tell u, they were so pro la...anyways, Keith, Phyllis, Enan and i were there..haha basically we paid the most attention to Phui See's part of the concert...lol she did a solo part and we all were like cheering our nuts off...=P...lol anyways tat part was great la. so cool...i have always wanted to do a solo part in singing...hahaha. so funneh, anyways cant wait till xmas...lol tmw i got a long day ahead, another xmas party to attend to. =)

2007-12-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

...Rhema 07, 3 most meaningful days in my life!!...

Rhema 07, has jus ended 2 days ago...it was such fun and excitement, and also very meaningful...u can feel HIS presence moving around to every individual and touching lives...haha so memorable...the 1st and 2nd day was very bz, with logistics and games...but then things eased off on the 3rd day and kirb and I were manning the badge souvenir store which was having trouble selling on the 1st 2 days...but when kirb and i were on it, we managed to sell almost everything hahaha...Pastor Andy was also so cool...but anyways Rhema is over already and i felt kinda sad to leave the committee...i mean we REALLY REALLY bcame 1 through the organizing process of Rhema 07...either ways, Rhema Conference 2007 "...that they maybe one as we are one"John 17:11...i will miss u

2007-12-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

...SO DARN BUSY!!!...

YeS! im so busy nowadays...Rhema is onli less than a week away, and everything is all pushed back to the last min...omg...i mean i got school la and i can onli squeeze everything onto the weekends and my recess breaks...sigh...i hope i can survive this, also tmw im so busy tat i have to skip service to go down AGAIN and buy the mounting boards and aluminium foil for tomorrow...omgdness...i guess i can make it...i hope, pray, wish, and better...anyways today kirb, phui see, phyllis went to takashimaya and i and kirb got ourselves lost...again...more than twice, aha then phui see had to come and rescue us...anyways we went there to check out prices for rhema stuffs and buy some as well...but in the end all we got are 2 cans of frosted spray for rhema...zZz and we were all making a huge embarassment of ourselves in Art friend...zZz hahah but after tat we ate and played abit of DS and PSP...lol and then phyllis had to go off...while kirb phui see and i went to find some PSP games and random stuffs...also on the way we met a past speaker tat preached in our church b4...so qiao lor...haha anyways other than tat there isnt much...haha i gtg prepare for tmw bz day liao...gd bye, Sallies...

2007-11-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

...You Got Me On My Knees...

ToDaY was an okok funny day...we went to Great World City and ate, after having such a hard time finding a place to sit down...aha we ate liao, then we decided to have desert, i went for the usual ice mango, phui see had ice longang with erm...some kind of brown jelly stuff, enan had ice peach, phyllis had ice longang with alot of syrup (and i really meant ALOT of EXTRA syrup), momo had ice jelly...yea everything was fine, other than the fact tat almost everyone except phui see was koping my ice cream...zZz...haha. but then i dunno y, phyllis suddenly spat out her desert onto the table, and suei suei phui see and enan were sitting opposite her...so u can sort of imagine wad happened to them. ahah...phyllis claims tat it was me and momo's fault but i jus cant understand tat...lol. after tat phui see and enan went missing and i, momo, phyllis had to play the hide and seek game, and tat kinda got me annoyed....but nvm after tat we went to the arcade and phyllis, momo played DDR...phui see, enan and i played table hockey. enan winning in the end, lol and phui see trying to tempt me with the PSP on display in a arcade game...haha and after tat we slowly took our time and went home with phyllis sending me alot of click 5 songs...haha

and also i jus found out the song Jenny is actually quite nice...haha...oh and btw the kitchen is a.k.a chicken to me...LOL

2007-11-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

...I Can't Explain Myself at All...

KiRbY jus left...with a bunch of laughs...haha yea today we, Phui See, Phyllis, Kirby, Enan, me went to buy Rhema stuffs at Sheng Shiong and Parkway Parade...lol funny. after tat came over to my place for some dinner and abit of laughs...nth much actually, Phui See got her hands on my stiff 2x2 rubix cube and wont give up till its done...she even tried using the formula but it seems like the words are too qim even for me to understand...=P also, Phyllis was on my laptop tagging my blog...lol and Kirb was jus looking at my books and how dusty they were. haha but after tat Phyllis and Phui See left cuz they were rushing for time, but its ok...haha Kirb and i went to play Tiberium Sun and created our very own viceroid farm! haha i mean we had 6 weird blob-looking mush and they were named, Johnny, Jonathan, Betty, Sally, Wan Ling and Wimp Low...LOL it was so funny...haha but i guess the others wont understand wad we are talking about anyways...=) yupz...tats bout it for today although i sure do wish tat they could come again some other time...haha mayb my other com would be fixed by then and we could play Audition or some other hooplah lolz...im so looking to the holidays...and im also very sorry for causing u so much trouble, i feel so guilty...if there is anyway to make it up at all, pls do tell me =)

2007-11-20T11:30:00.001+08:00

...Ur my Dirty Little Secret...

I jus managed to find some time in my CMI schedule to finally post something again...zZz...very busy lately with Rhema logistics...haha but nvm its ok...erm...i onli have 17 mins so lets see. 1stly we have been visiting Phyllis's house quit recently for some reason...haa ya we as in Phui see, Momo, Enan, Kirby and me...we went there quite a number of times and it was kinda fun...i mean...we even created a group named "Don't Fren U" LOl...its a long story on how it happened...but yea it was fun at Phyllis's house, i mean there were alot of jokes la...and we also copied catch phrases from each other...Phyllis's was "i smack ur ka cheng ar!", Phui See's was "tats FUNNEH/NUT FUNNEH"...Momo was "i hate you"...and mine was "im gonna hood ur ass so bad"...zZz...yea we made fun of each other and it was super funny. yea we also discovered alot of things...such as, i pronounce 'Not' as 'Nut'..and Phui see pronouces 'Funny' as 'Funneh'. LOL, also tat MRT travels vertically(onli in Phyllis's house) and tat both of them love to torment Hamsters...and when i say both, i mean mostly Phyllis and Phui See (ok fine, its always them, but more to Phyllis side)...haha basically theres too much to say in 1 post an plus my laptop batt is dying out...hmmm guess i will continue tonight then...haha

2007-11-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

...Wash Away...

SoMeWhErE in the middle my school semester now...haha...hmmm so far im surviving...but i doubt it will last long...lol...anyways Rhema is coming and its getting much more stressful...its like compound interest...everything starts getting bigger...LOL...anyways hmmm nth much as well...Kirbs birthday coming up...so u can expect a hooplah party...hah

2007-10-15T14:47:00.000+08:00

...It Ends Tonight...

HoLiDaYs jus ended...and now im like in school enjoying wads left of my 4 HOUR break...lol...its seriously long sigh...tats wad u get for failing 1 subject...all ur subjects are all messed up and u like hvae huge breaks but dunno wad to do with them...i guess i will probably go to AMK hub to watch movies or something...LOL...its like boring...oh well...wads done is done...

2007-10-13T14:50:00.000+08:00

...I'm Afraid...

I got a very terrifying nightmare like last night...its nth like those horror movies or shows u see on tv or the cinema...this nightmare was so realistic tat it scares me...to sumarize the dream, its basically 1 of my best frens was involved in a car accident which took place on the street jus outside my house...but tats not the worst part...u know tat most ppl say tat they cant feel in dreams? well for this one its special, i can actually feel in the nightmare, every breath and scent, i got it all...i dunno y but its jus so scary...blood was everywhere body parts strewn about...its so realistic...like a REAL accident...and the worst part is tat i can actually feel my fren's life fading away...its like the spirit of the person slowly going away until u cant feel its presense anymore...i was so freaked i could have sworn i cried...and even as i looked out onto tat street...i feel depressed, terrified and even afraid...tat such a thing might 1 day happen...

2007-10-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

...Where'd you go?...

HaHAz...mmm ya its like 11.52 now..PM!! not in the morning lol...anyways nth much today...youth leaders meeting, then church, then lunch, then home and sleep my day away...till now...LOL yea anyways i still couldnt get my 2x2x2 rubiks cube to work...LOL. yea and also i kinda like lost my touch in singing...hahah...its like im suddenly tone death...sad but yea...i wonder y though...sigh anyways tats bout it...dont wanna type out an entire page-long essay...hha nitez!

2007-09-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

...Delusions of Grandeur...

Wo...goodness man its been like soooooo long since i updated this thingy. Anyways everythings ok so far...i mean its the holidays already and yea, i dont intend to work...so i jus sit at home and get lethargic...lol...anyways Dare U to Move was nice, very interesting...Rhema is coming up soon, which meant 1 thing for me...MORE WORK...hahaha yea but its cool...i really pray tat it will be a big blast...=) anyways jus got home from cycling...very tired and full (dinner was alot) so cya all...

2007-07-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

...My First Vocal Class...

HaHa yea...the very 1st vocal class i got...jus finished it today at 1645...hmmm its so cool...there are about 6 ppl there including me...erm age are like from sec 2 to about senior citizen age...they are soo cool la...i mean the teacher is friendly and stuff...haha...although i was nervous during the song presentation and i tink i kinda messed up...oh well...better luck next week then...

2007-07-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

...Happy Birthday R-AGE!!!111...

HmM...R-AGE tenth anniversary...haha...so cool we had a DnD on 1st july yea...its so cool...1st DnD i went...hmm...everyone there was like super formal haha...but its over le...i wish it lasted longer...but o well...next one is hopefully 6 yrs time...haha...hmmm...Rhema is getting closer...and im getting busier...with the pre rhema event and all...im like super tied down...haha...anyways tats all...

2007-05-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

...DAMN IT,FREAKING UNFAIR...

PLEASE dont ask me y i am so pissed...a relative of mine... got into Superstar...lemme guess? i should be happy rite? NO...im jus feeling like shit rite now...of course i feel abit happy for him...its jus tat i am jus pissed...i dunno at wad but jus pissed...its not jealousy...its jus tat i love singing but i didnt do anthing about it...i dont feel like saying anything else...i jus wanna be alone with my songs...tats all...

2007-05-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

...So Weird...

YeA...recently feeling very very weird...dunno y...theres no probs but jus feeling weird...=.=...anyways finally got my laptop and school is ok though...nth much to do..hw is little and blah blah...anyways i tink im jus feeling abit bored...hmmm...oh well...

2007-04-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

...Westside Story...

YoZ...yea...my post today...erm...about Westside Story by ACJC at DBS Arts Centre...hmm...its very very very............................................very touching...almost like Romeo and Juliet, actually 2nd thoughts...it IS Romeo and Juliet...haha...oyea btw i saw Amanda Liu from church there!! and we were like..."wad r u doing here?!"...haha so funny sia...but hmm after the show still got some suprises...erm...how to put it...oya...cuz it was my AKLTG fren tat invited me along...due to some reasons...and erm yea being from AKLTG, u can expect the laughter and stuffs...her frens where a funny bunch too...i can still remember the "cushion joke"...cant help but still laugh at it...haha...anyways tats it...Westside Story...romantic, touching, humourous, last but not least, memorable...

2007-04-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

...SICK SICK SICK...

YeA...damn sick...stomach flu...wad else is better to ruin ur Good Friday?...sigh...o well..anyways waiting for my laptop...hmmm...coming quit late if im not wrong...but anyways i can busy myself with the new C&C 3 Tiberium Wars game i bought...and the new Razer Diamondback mouse...woohoo...haha...anyways nth much to type about...guess i will go tag instead...lolz...

2007-03-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

...Total Eclipse of the Heart...
...By Westlife...

HmMm...i actually wanted to paste the lyrics here...but its too big...anyways its a very nice song...haha...erm...o ya sry for not posting b4...bz with stuffs...anyways to keep updated...im going to NYP for now...hopefully my DAE from Temasek allow me to go in...have Faith...anyways erm...i bought a new HP!! Z610i, and erm new specs as well...yup...made me broke in less than 2 days...anyways ice skated again...fun as always...but nowadays damn bored...everyone is in school!!...haha...anyways tats all...bye bye bye...

2007-02-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

...Chinese Songs...!!!

I must be going NUTS...anyways i have decided to try singing chinese songs and its like no comments...i kinda suck at it...haha mayb i have been too used to english songs le...but this song is super nice!! i gotta learn it...it sounds happy and the lyrics are sweet...haha...anyways tmw is my last day at work...im kinda happy...at least i can look forward to a new phone with my pay...Z610i by SonyEricsson...tats wad i want...heheheh...

2007-02-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

...YaWnInG...

LoLz...dunno wad im saying...anyways hmmm got my results for O levels back le...it was ok...i like finally passed maths after 4 yrs...lolz anyways ice skating again was post phoned...sigh...anyways working aint a kick either...at least theres cash involved, im ok with it...haha...

2007-02-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

...Work Work Work...

YoZ...ya like my title says...im finally working now...its like a love hate thing...i like working, but yet cant wait for it to end...its tiring u know?? anyways the O levels results are coming out really really soon...and i hate this feeling...but like wad Kirby said, have FAITH111!!...lolz...anyways im gonna pray for all my frends, whether from church or not...so pls...pray for me too ok??

2007-01-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

...Pre-Teens Cell Mentor...

LoLz...weird title...anyways ya im a pre teens CM...so happy!!...but also sad tat bb goes my old cell...aww...but nvm we all going ice skating 11th feb...onli the cell...so fun...anyways...nowadays busy le...TRYING to find job...but dont have...=.=...anyways now at home nth to do so update lor...sigh...also results coming super soon le...cant ta han...anyways tat much for today la...nth le...lolz...bb...

2006-12-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

...ICE - WATER - WATER VAPOUR...

HaHaZ...wad a lame title...anyways ya jus went ice skating for the 1st time yesterday...and it was such fun...its like roller blading without getting any bad injuries and sweat...hahaz...actually its easier than roller blading...theres not as much friction...lolz...anyways ya tats about it...erm next should be Wild Wild Wet bah...then after tat should be Sentosa...but for now...its jus Deathnote 2...hehe...BB!!

2006-12-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

...Hamster Boy...

LoLz...alot of u must be thinking y i put up such a weird title...but tats a long story...anyways, the Leaders' Retreat jus ended...and as expected it was great...!! everyone had a great time rock climbing, rope walking, rafting and last but not least coming together with The Lord...it was the best time ever!! although there were difficulties such as trying to sleep with the booming noise of aircraft engines in the background and getting caught in the rain on a very fast moving lorry...hahaz...basically, the aircraft noise was because our camp was located super near the Changi Airport and it was in the way where planes land...so u know how low they fly and thus the noise they make were quite a nuisance...2ndly the rain was due to us going for supper and coming back...at 1st the sky was ok...but when we were on the way back to camp on a open air lorry...o man, the rain gave us no mercy...hahaz and we were pelted by big droplets of rain water which felt like it was a hail stone as the lorry was moving very very fast...hahaz anyways tats about it...i tink i wrote too much already...hehz...anyways in short the retreat was something worth remembering...

2006-12-16T10:34:00.000+08:00

...Love, Peace and Happiness...

HiHiZ!!! Rhema Conference and Rush jus over!! awww man i wished i could have done more than participating in the activities only!! nvm i wait till next yr...i'll probably gonna be a usher or something like tat...anyways the 3 days were fun like never b4...it was the best 3 days i ever had...but its not only fun and games, there were touching moments as well...its so perfect...anyways i also got to meet some ppl from STIR the band...and erm i also got nicknamed "hamster" (mostly due to Kirby's fault) but either than tat it was a great time meeting new ppl and learning how to dance, sing and speak japanese!! yay!! anyways tats all for now...wait till the Leader's Retreat coming up, hopefully it will be fun too and i can blog about it all day long...hehez...

2006-12-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

...When You Cried I Wiped Away All Of Your Tears...

I jus tried the promoting job recently and as expected, it wasnt easy at all...sigh quited the day i started...but tats not the reason y i am posting this...once again when i felt tat i was beginning to feel better, things always turn for the worse...jus wanted to say tat after all the years i wiped away all ur tears, fought away all ur fears...it seems like u dont know the meaning behind all of it...cant u tell? whenever u looked at me...cant u tell? whenever u hear my voice...cant u tell? u shrugged me off today as if i was some stranger...but its ME...the person who would never ever want to hurt u...sometimes i wish i knew exactly wad u think of me...hu am i to u?...who am i?

2006-11-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

...I Am Gifted, So Are You!!...

HiHiZ...jus finished the camp "I Am Gifted, So Are You"...it was fun!!...yea one of a kind tat camp...i bet i would never get to see this kind of course anywhere else...hehz...but its not all about fun and acdemics, there were tears being shed as well...basically, no one could ever predict wad will happen next...its alot like life, u must grab the opportunity b4 it gets away...anyways tats about it here...its a great camp...i loved every single second...

2006-11-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

...Its The Dream Afraid Of Waking...

AnYoNe ever felt in between 2 choices but doesnt know which one to take? well i feel tat way now...to believe or not to...i dunno y...something strongly tells me to refuse to believe, but yet something else tells me not to...i am so freaking confused right now...isit jealousy or isit jus concerned...even now as i am typing this, it keeps bothering me...wish tat my troubles would end...and soon...cuz i cant take it much more...